After reading an email from my sweet wife about what she is thankful for, I realized that my previous Thanksgiving post was incomplete. I failed to mention the things that I am thankful for.
I’m thankful for having such a wonderful family. Starting with my wife. She is so incredibly kind and loving. Her dedication & loyalty is absolutely impeccable. I am so blessed to have her. Thank you, Suzie!
I’m thankful for my amazing mother and all of her love & support. Thanks, mom! I love you.
I’m thankful for my sisters, and my nieces & nephew. I’m especially thankful for my brother-in-laws and how they treat my sisters and their kids.
Wow! There’s so much to be thankful for.
I’m thankful for my Friends.
I’m thankful for my readers and followers.
I’m thankful for being in The Dog Program.
I’m thankful for the opportunity to blog.
I’m thankful to be alive and to have a release date.
I’m thankful for my Marriage.
I’m thankful for clothes to wear and food to eat.
I’m thankful for JPay.
I’m thankful for football season.
I’m thankful for Influential Books to read.
I’m thankful for my health.
I’m thankful for Stone City Blog.
I’m thankful for the opportunity to take NA classes to earn back good time.
I’m thankful for all my blessings and for all the people who love & support me.
I am sharing the journal I kept while I did 7 months in the hole:
Day 36 In The Hole
Coming to prison is kinda like dying. Except I’m still alive to see all the pain I’ve caused. And no one feels the pain more than a mother.
Day 39 In The Hole
I tried calling my mom but my numbers are still blocked. In order for me to use the phone, I have to submit a “phone request”. I’m allowed to do this once every two weeks.
When my phone time arrives, they wheel in a huge mobile phone and park it by my door. I get 20 minutes to reach through the cuff port (a slot in the door) and call the numbers on my approved phone list.
The problem is, all my numbers are still blocked. Hmmmm, I wonder why? Perhaps the fact that I just got caught with a cellphone might have something to do with it. If so, that’s fine. But at least tell me something.
I was sanctioned for my actions. And none of my sanctions included loss of phone time. This place is dirty. They don’t follow policy and procedure. They just do what they want.
Kinda like me when I decided to do what I wanted when I smuggled in a cellphone. You reap what you sow. Don’t cry now. Accept it and move on!
Seldom set foot in your neighbor’s house – too much of you, and he will hate you. Proverbs 25:17
And I will hate him! This explains why I don’t sit with the same guys every day in the chow hall. And why I don’t have a consistent workout partner. I like to bounce around and take people in moderation. Too much of one person gets on my nerves.
If your enemy is hungry, give him food to eat; if he is thirsty, give him water to drink. Proverbs 25:21
After the riot in Colorado, they locked me in a cell with Terry. An enemy. Read chapter 24 (The Riot) in my ebook, Stone City: Life In The Penitentiary, to see how I treated Terry.
Better to live on a corner of the roof than share a house with a quarrelsome wife. Proverbs 25:24
For 9 years I searched for a wife. I placed adds all over the internet (see: How I Found Love From Within Prison). I had dozens of women offering to marry me. Some would say, “Yes, let’s do it” in their very first letter. As I explored these women, I realized that they were very quarrelsome! And I would rather live on the corner of a cold dark roof than marry a quarrelsome wife.
Then I met Suzie. My perfect little angel. She truly is my reward for being patient and waiting for my perfect match. Good things come to those who wait!
Do not answer a fool according to his folly, or you will be like him yourself. Proverbs 26:4
This is something I’ve been extremely mindful of. In here foolish lips run wild! The response to such foolishness becomes compulsive. But in the light of spiritual awakeness, I am aware. I am able to control my mind, rather than IT control me. The arguments I win are the ones I don’t engage in. More and more I am simply walking away.
As a dog returns to its vomit, so a fool repeats his folly. Proverbs 26:11
Ewwwww……gross! Focus on the things that serve you well.
Do not boast about tomorrow, for you do not know what a day may bring forth. Proverbs 27:1
Focus on today. Show love and respect today. Obey the scripture today. Tell your kids you love them today. Live in the moment and discover the power of now. Simplify your life and focus on one day at a time.
As iron sharpens iron, so one man sharpens another. Proverbs 27:17
As water reflects a face, so a man’s heart reflects the man. Proverbs 27:19
I love these simple truths. They open my mind and inspire me to strive for more. Thank God for the teachings of Jesus.
Evil men do not understand justice, but those who seek the Lord understand it fully. Proverbs 28:5
A lack of understanding is a recipe for disaster. I am so thankful for the teachings of Jesus. Through scripture, I gain understanding.
He who conceals his sins does not prosper, but whoever confesses and renounces them finds mercy. Proverbs 28:13
I confess and renounce! Please God, have mercy on my soul.
He who trusts in himself is a fool, but he who walks in wisdom is kept safe. Proverbs 28:26
For years I thought I could trust in myself by saying,” No more fighting. Do what’s right.” Although it was a step in the right direction, I still found myself in trouble. Through trial and error, I have realized that I CANNOT do it on my own. I need the teachings of Jesus in my life. I need that divine wisdom. I have finally found the way to a happy, prosperous life. Never again will I try to do it on my own.
An evil man is snared by his own sin, but a righteous one can sing and be glad. Proverbs 29:6
Goodbye being snared by my own sin. Hello songs and gladness. Is it coincidence that I just performed song and dance in front of the entire visiting room? Where did that strength and courage come from? That’s something I thought I’d NEVER do.
A fool gives full vent to his anger, but a wise man keeps himself under control. Proverbs 29:11
Goodbye being a fool. Hello self-control. Life has never been better. Who knew I’d be saying that from within prison!
If something is viewed by many people, it will be described in many ways. The Bible is no exception. In order for the Bible to work for me, I must pick and choose the scriptures that serve me well. I must be honest, not all scriptures serve me well. As a matter of fact, a lot of scriptures discourage me. That’s why I went years without spiritual guidance. That’s why I question, “Is there really a God?”
Every word of God is flawless, he is a shield to those who take refuge in him. Proverbs 30:5
I know this to be un-true. Just look at the world. Some of the most heinous crimes take place in the church.
Do not add to his words, or he will rebuke you and prove you a liar. Proverbs 30:6
Have you ever heard one preacher who didn’t add to His words? Every preacher in the world adds to His words. Are they liars?
The eye that mocks a father, that scorns obedience to a mother, will be pecked out by the ravens of the valley, will be eaten by the vultures. Proverbs 30:17
There are people who believe EVERY word in the Bible. I am not one of those people. I believe the Bible is a good book of morals and precepts. I know that great truth can be found within the practical scriptures. I believe that if you seek spiritual guidance through the teachings of Jesus, then you’ll live a righteous life. If you’re one of those people who ignore the Bible because of similar reasons I just mentioned….don’t do it! I made that mistake for years. One thing that is very evident is: My life is sooo much more peaceful, and has so much more joy in it now that I’ve committed my ways to the practical teachings of Jesus.
Most of my writing focuses on practical scriptures that I want to apply to my life. However, I don’t agree with EVERY scripture in the Bible. This goes against the fundamental belief of most Christians who believe and agree with every word in the Bible. My conscious of right or wrong, simply won’t let me do that.
Give beer to those who are perishing, wine to those who are in anguish. Proverbs 31:6
Can you imagine walking around an ICU floor in a hospital, with two cases of Budweiser as you pass them out to those who are perishing? Or perhaps you’d find it more suiting to visit an Asylum or a Psychiatric Ward, with four gallons of red wine for all the people who are in anguish.
Let them drink and forget their poverty and remember their misery no more. Proverbs 31:7
Yeah right! If only it were that simple. The truth is, the Bible offers great spiritual guidance for those who seek it. Be practical and focus on the teachings that will make you a better person. Find what works for you and stick with it.
Thanks for following along as I read the book of Proverbs and shared my perspectives. I’ve gained insightful teachings from the Bible that I will be mindful of in my daily life.