Remember my NA series and all those NA Meetings I attended? Well they just now paid off in the form of good time. My release date has been adjusted from 8-9-32 to 3-7-32. I haven’t done the math, but according to DOC, that’s 155 days!
Upon receiving this good news I was also informed that I will be getting back an additional 90 days at my next review in August. All I gotta do is remain infraction free, stay in The Dog Program, and receive positive evaluations.
It feels good to be going the other way. To be earning good time rather than loosing it. To be living in harmony rather than conflict. To be progressing rather than regressing. To be making friends rather than enemies. To be focusing on the positive rather than the negative.
For almost 23 years my environment hasn’t changed. PRISON! It’s still full of misfits and misconduct. But what has changed is my attitude, perspective, outlook, and priorities. During my quest to seek knowledge and understanding I’ve learned that the mind is like a garden. Either you can intelligently Cultivate it, or neglect it and let it run wild. That’s why its crucial for me to constantly cultivate my mind by weeding out all the wrong, useless, destructive, impure thoughts. And nurturing my mind with right, useful, constructive, positive thoughts.
By constantly pursuing this process of mind evolution, I am starting to reap the rewards. Such as: I found my beautiful soulmate in Suzie, I made it to The Honor Unit, I got accepted into the dog program, I’ve met new people and have devolved new friendships, I’m no longer getting in fights or hurting people, and I’m earning back good time. Just to name a few.
For years I allowed my mind to run wild. The results were devastating! For more on the devastation you can read my ebook titled, STONE CITY : LIFE IN THE PENITENTIARY.
I was oblivious to the fact that a deeper level of consciousness existed. I was mindlessly wandering through life, and inappropriately reacting to everything life threw at me. With a neglected mind, I didn’t stand a chance. But with a new and improved cultivated mind, I have so much hope and excitement for today and the rest of my life.
If you had the power to be happier, to change your environment, and to have better relationships with friends and family, would you use that power?
Of course you would!
So why don’t you?
The power is within you.
Take the first step and read : “AS A MAN THINKETH” by James Allen. This book will teach you LAWS OF THOUGHT that cannot error. By reading this quick little 55 page book, you’ll be taking a crucial step towards intelligently cultivating your mind. I hope you feel inspired.
Remember when Hillary Clinton used the term “deplorable” when she referred to Trump supporters? Well, she was right. There are deplorable people mixed in with Trump supporters.
But WOW!!! Look at what her ”deplorables” are doing? Violence, hate crimes, racist graffiti, vandalism, rioting, all over the country!
It just goes to show that evil exists on both sides of the aisle.
The campaign trail was littered with insults, offensive language, lies, corruption, scandal, hate, and a host of other negative adjectives. By both candidates.
But that is in the past and the election is over. The people have spoken, and Mr.Trump is our new President. It’s time to rise above all the rhetoric, and focus on Mr. Trump’s actions as President. And so far, he’s been impressive.
I don’t expect the ”deplorables” to accept this fact in a peaceful, loving, mature manner. They will continue to hurl insults and act out as they focus on all the negative they can find and even fabricate. They will remain pessimistic, hostile, combative, and unsupportive. Even as President Trump successfully makes America great again.
No matter what he does, the deplorables will remain in a state of misery.
Ask yourself, do you have any of these deplorable characteristics? Are you stuck in the past and focused on negativity as President Trump moves this country forward?
By ”moving forward” I mean rebuilding our infrastructure, creating jobs, improving healthcare, taking care of our veterans, strengthening our military, and fixing the economy… just to name a few.
If you doubt that President Trump can do all that, well let me remind you of the 2016 Presidential Race. Many experts seriously doubted that he would ever win the nominee. And even more experts said he would NEVER NEVER NEVER win the election.
Did you see how he miraculously re-landscaped the political map? He won battleground states such as Pennsylvania, Michigan, and Wisconsin. These are states that Republicans have been trying to win for over 30 years! And he did it relatively easy, with very little money. How? Exactly how he said he’d do it, by appealing to the “left behind” workers and delivering a message of economic revival.
So go ahead and doubt your new President if you want to. But I warn you, DON’T BET AGAINST HIM! The man is a beast and he gets desired results. I will continue to mark his progress and point out milestones along his journey to making America great again.
Meanwhile, Clinton’s die hard deplorables will continue to ignore President Trump’s amazing accomplishments. They will be too preoccupied focusing on a comment he made when he rated a Miss America contestant a “4” because she had small tits!
Get over it! Move forward. And use your energy to support your new President in a positive & productive manner. It’s never too late to change…especially for the good!
God Bless America.
“Complete surrender is the key to recovery, and total abstinence is the only thing that has ever worked for us.”
As we read from the 6th edition NA book, the above words really stood out to me. This is significant to me because not too long ago, some guy came in my cell wanting to fight. I completely surrendered and endured his verbal assault. I didn’t fight. Instead I took a verbal beating as I totally abstained from violence. NA teaches that if I surrender, I will find recovery. I surrender to rightful actions. The more I do it, the easier it gets. Violence is no longer an option.
I just came in with Yahoo. We worked on “Heel” and “Sit”. Then we ran 1 mile. Can you believe I’m in better shape than Yahoo? He get’s tired and slows down. So I speed up and say, “Come on Yahoo…lets go!!!” He tries to catch up but can’t…I’m just too gosh darn fast!
Every time we go through doors, I make him “sit.” Then “wait.” Then I say, “Heel” as I go through the door first. Yahoo follows close behind, then catches up to the “Heel” position. Then we stop, and I make him sit.
It’s awesome to watch this dog progress. Because when I first got him, he didn’t even know his name, much less all the things I’m teaching him now.
He also has learned to go into his crate. On command! I no longer have to guide him in.
The only real challenge at this point is to get him to sit consistently. He doesn’t like to sit. He’s 9 years old and has lumps all throughout his body. So I think sitting is uncomfortable for him. He never sits on his own. He either lays down, or remains standing.
Like right now, he’s calm and relaxed. But he remains standing. We’ve been here at the jpay kiosk for 15 min. Most dogs would’ve taken a seat by now. I could make him sit, but he’d get up the second I take my attention away.
Every Tuesday there is a Dog Program meeting. This is to assess the dogs and monitor progress. Right now Yahoo has a red bandana around his neck. All new dogs get red. The next step is yellow. Then green.
RED means no one can pet him except handlers.
YELLOW means others can pet him and approach him.
GREEN means I can take him with me outside the unit.
I can’t wait for Yahoo to earn his Green bandana. I love watching him progess and learn. This program is every bit as awesome as I knew it would be.
Until next time, love your pets and do something kind for an animal.
What is the difference between knowledge & wisdom? I say wisdom comes from applying knowledge.
I’m learning all this knowledge from reading potent and influential books. Books that teach the Laws of the Universe and that inspire great change. Books that contain the distilled wisdom of many eras, cultures, and one great soul.
I’m learning about Faith, Prayer, The Law of Attraction, The Universal Subjective Mind, and I’m learning all about the Science of Mind. All this is great knowledge. Now it’s time to apply this knowledge and convert it into wisdom.
I want to specifically focus on getting into the Honor Pod, or the Dog Program. I want to specifically apply all that I’ve learned to these goals. Because these are two programs I’ve been trying to achieve for almost 6 years!
In the past, I mentally gave up on these programs. But in light of my new journey and new-found knowledge, I’m going to keep trying. I’m going to apply the power of prayer. I’m going to apply the principals of “Cause and Condition”. I’m going to stick with these goals until I get accepted.
Three weeks ago I wrote Mr. Grubb a letter (see: Going Above & Beyond). He hasn’t responded yet. So today I wrote him another letter:
“Mr. Grubb, A few weeks ago I sent you a letter expressing my interest in the Honor Pod. What is your honest view regarding me getting accepted into the honor pod? Will I ever receive a fair opportunity to thrive in your program? I appreciate the feedback.”
I kept this letter short and concise. I’m not trying to bug him. I’m just trying to be persistent. I also wrote another letter to Mr. Cherry (the dog program supervisor):
“Mr. Cherry, On 7-26-12, you responded to my kite. You said, “Stay infraction free for a while and I’ll look at giving you an interview down the road. You have time and so do I.” Well sir, I’m going on 4 years infraction free. May I please have an interview for the dog program? I won’t let you down. Thank you.”
I share this with you because I want to make a point and illustrate how the Laws of the Universe work.
Not too long ago I told myself, “These people are not going to let you in these programs.” I gave up all hope. I lost faith. Today my hope & faith is restored. I now understand that The Universal Subjective Mind is entirely receptive to my thoughts. Therefore, I must ALWAYS think and believe that I will get accepted into these programs.
I now realize that I’m dealing with an Infinite Power that can only objectify that which is impressed upon It. So I’m going to keep pressing until I reach my goals….no matter how long it takes.
Thank you for allowing me to share my journey with you. I absolutely love this blog and all the inspiration it brings me.
PS – I just got a reply from Mr. Cherry. He said for me to submit another application. Okay. Will do
On Feb. 2nd 2015, I was in the gym playing handball. I went back deep to hit a ball. I knew there were a few guys back there. They were working out. That’s nothing new. There are always guys back there.
As I returned to the court, I noticed one guy rapidly following me. He says, “Hey man, don’t you ever run up on me like that again.”
As a result of my constant positive thinking, my response was somewhat compulsive. Only this time it was compulsive on the positive side of the spectrum. (see: How To Control Compulsive Thoughts)
I instantly said, “I’m sorry. I didn’t mean any disrespect.”
(Remember? This is what I should’ve said to Brent In: How I Lost My EFV’s For 5 Years)
To my surprise he said, “Yeah, well don’t let it happen again.” And he walked away.
I continued my game. Almost immediately, another ball was hit deep. This time I just stood there and watched it sail into hostile territory.
I didn’t even go get it. I simply shook the hands of the other three handball players, and said, “Good game guys. I’m done for the day.”
Then I went to the cardio room and spent the last 20 minutes on the elliptical machine.
The way I handled this situation is very encouraging to me. Because there was a time when I would’ve hurt that boy for being so rude and disrespectful.
But even after I committed to “NO MORE FIGHTS”, I still found myself struggling.
I would avoid a fight, but it would be super hard. I’d lose sleep. I’d feel conflicted. I’d still think about going back to fight. And sometimes I’d say the wrong thing that would leave me no choice but to fight.
But on this day, none of that was a factor. It was so easy to apologize. It was so easy to walk away. I wasn’t tempted to meet his aggressive words with aggressive words of my own. I didn’t lose any sleep. I wasn’t even slightly tempted to go back and confront ol boy.
I’m viewing this incident as a positive event in my life. I’m using it as a milestone to mark significant progress. Because not only did I do the right thing, but none of the negative side effects haunted me. And this time it was super easy to do the right thing.
It just goes to show that if you think in a positive manner, your actions will eventually catch up to your thinking.
This applies to negative thinking too. I shared A Few Poems in my last post. One of the poems was dated back to when I was 12 years old. That poem showed my negative mindset. As a youngster, most my thoughts were violent and negative. By the time I was 20, my actions had caught up to those deep, dark, violent thoughts.
The message is clear…nurture your mind with happy, positive, loving material. Limit your thinking to all things good. Then, when the storm comes, you’ll be able to stand strong and produce a positive outcome.
These are lessons I’ve learned the hard way. It feels good to finally get it right.
Better late than never.
It’s never too late to change for the good.